Solitary Confinement

I found this article in the New Yorker about the effects of solitary confinement on human beings. I've never been a prisoner but I wonder if some of this applies to me based on isolation during my adolescence. Some of the spree killers who turn up now and then all seem to have led extremely isolated lives, with little normal contact with others. Certainly the guy at Virginia Tech seemed to be totally cut off from anybody. I'm not sure why this happens since these people were not forcibly put into a cell and physically cut off from everyone else. In America High Schools though some kids are just treated like shit and socially isolated from everyone else. It's gotta to have some impact on them, even if it is not as extreme as the prisoners in the story.

The hanged man

Weird coincidence: was just watching an episode of Lost in which John Locke tries to hang himself. A moment later I accept an invitation from a friend on Facebook. When I go to his page, I see a tarot card application there. The card of the day is the hanged man. The explanation of the card says that it means I have to look at my situation from a new perspective. It goes on, "The Hanged Man creates change by acting passively and accepting fate. By surrendering control and making yourself vulnerable, you will facilitate change in your life." I wonder to whom I should surrender control and make myself vulnerable?

chats

I chatted on IRC for several hours with gauge last weekend. It's hard to know what to make of her but she seems interested me. It's weird to find a female in a gay chatroom (assuming she really is female). She keeps asking if I am corporeal and implies that I might be some kind of demon. I keep saying I'm not one.